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october:
was when i met you.
we were in a coffee shop. it was stuffy and crowded, but it smelt like hope and the coffee was decent.
you sat down next to me, quietly, and neither of us said anything as you watched my coffee get cold.
'why?' you asked softly.
'i don't like getting burned.'
it's a shame i ended up getting burned anyway.
--
november:
i had this incredibly eccentric neighbor.
she put her christmas lights up at the beginning of november. i never understood why.
most of the lights ended up dying by december.
and then i thought of the lights as the important people in my life, and i thought it was ironic how, in the end, they always ended up dying or leaving, too.
--
december:
the first night it snowed that year, you brushed my hair out of my eyes and smiled. i asked, 'what are you smiling about?'
you said, 'i know what my new year's resolution will be.'
i asked, 'what?'
you said, 'i'm going to be more careful. my goal is to not break anything out of clumsiness.' and suddenly, we were centiments apart, and i could smell your cinnamon breath on my face.
you said, 'i promise i won't break you.' and then you kissed me, and it was our beginning.
--
january:
the snow was still falling. you said i reminded you of a snowflake; how i had six sides, but in the end, they're all the same.
i pointed out that snowflakes melt.
you smiled and said, 'yes, but we need the water that they become.'
but you never needed me, did you?
--
february:
the snow stopped falling.
and you broke your new year's resolution when you left - my heart shattered when you stepped on it on your way out.
you didn't even say sorry, not that it would've changed anything.
--
march:
i'm sorry.
remember that picture of us we took back in december? the one with snow in our hair and that lonely tree in the background and the bird, about to take off to fly?
i broke it.
the glass picture frame dropped and shattered. i didn't think the picutre was worth getting pieces of glass in my hands.
i only wish i could tell you that dropping it was an accident.
--
april:
it was pouring the day i met him.
i was shivering outside, waiting for a taxi. he walked up to me, smiling, and gave me his raincoat against my protests.
i asked, 'how can i repay you?'
still smiling, he gave me his number and said, 'just call me sometime.'
--
may:
i visited my mom, and we reminisced about what life was like when i was little.
'remember the time when i baked a cake for your grandmother and you took a bite out of it when i wasn't looking?'
'yes,' i replied.
i had a reputation for taking things i shouldn't.
i still do.
--
june:
i finally got up the guts to call him.
'i've been waiting,' he said.
'so have i,' i replied.
'for what?' he asked, confused.
'i'm not sure,' i said.
i almost said for you, but i'm glad i didn't.
--
july:
he kissed me, not under the moon and stars but under the clouds and sun and sky.
but it was just as romantic.
and no, i didn't get butterflies. my heart didn't skip a beat and i didn't grow imaginary wings and start flying.
but the empty feeling inside felt a lot less heavy.
--
august:
he said, 'i wish i could say that i'm in love with you. but i can't.'
i said, 'that's okay. i understand.'
and i did.
because i felt the same.
--
september:
but he left, same as you did.
God, are all boys the same?
i can only hope the answer is no. and i'll be waiting for the one that's different.
if he exists, that is.
was when i met you.
we were in a coffee shop. it was stuffy and crowded, but it smelt like hope and the coffee was decent.
you sat down next to me, quietly, and neither of us said anything as you watched my coffee get cold.
'why?' you asked softly.
'i don't like getting burned.'
it's a shame i ended up getting burned anyway.
--
november:
i had this incredibly eccentric neighbor.
she put her christmas lights up at the beginning of november. i never understood why.
most of the lights ended up dying by december.
and then i thought of the lights as the important people in my life, and i thought it was ironic how, in the end, they always ended up dying or leaving, too.
--
december:
the first night it snowed that year, you brushed my hair out of my eyes and smiled. i asked, 'what are you smiling about?'
you said, 'i know what my new year's resolution will be.'
i asked, 'what?'
you said, 'i'm going to be more careful. my goal is to not break anything out of clumsiness.' and suddenly, we were centiments apart, and i could smell your cinnamon breath on my face.
you said, 'i promise i won't break you.' and then you kissed me, and it was our beginning.
--
january:
the snow was still falling. you said i reminded you of a snowflake; how i had six sides, but in the end, they're all the same.
i pointed out that snowflakes melt.
you smiled and said, 'yes, but we need the water that they become.'
but you never needed me, did you?
--
february:
the snow stopped falling.
and you broke your new year's resolution when you left - my heart shattered when you stepped on it on your way out.
you didn't even say sorry, not that it would've changed anything.
--
march:
i'm sorry.
remember that picture of us we took back in december? the one with snow in our hair and that lonely tree in the background and the bird, about to take off to fly?
i broke it.
the glass picture frame dropped and shattered. i didn't think the picutre was worth getting pieces of glass in my hands.
i only wish i could tell you that dropping it was an accident.
--
april:
it was pouring the day i met him.
i was shivering outside, waiting for a taxi. he walked up to me, smiling, and gave me his raincoat against my protests.
i asked, 'how can i repay you?'
still smiling, he gave me his number and said, 'just call me sometime.'
--
may:
i visited my mom, and we reminisced about what life was like when i was little.
'remember the time when i baked a cake for your grandmother and you took a bite out of it when i wasn't looking?'
'yes,' i replied.
i had a reputation for taking things i shouldn't.
i still do.
--
june:
i finally got up the guts to call him.
'i've been waiting,' he said.
'so have i,' i replied.
'for what?' he asked, confused.
'i'm not sure,' i said.
i almost said for you, but i'm glad i didn't.
--
july:
he kissed me, not under the moon and stars but under the clouds and sun and sky.
but it was just as romantic.
and no, i didn't get butterflies. my heart didn't skip a beat and i didn't grow imaginary wings and start flying.
but the empty feeling inside felt a lot less heavy.
--
august:
he said, 'i wish i could say that i'm in love with you. but i can't.'
i said, 'that's okay. i understand.'
and i did.
because i felt the same.
--
september:
but he left, same as you did.
God, are all boys the same?
i can only hope the answer is no. and i'll be waiting for the one that's different.
if he exists, that is.
Literature
I'm waiting for November
this is what I think when I wait in a metro on the coldest day of the year:
two years ago your mother found me asleep in the snow with blue lips and purple hands. when she grabbed my hands to lift me to my feet, the air felt thick and the noises around me sounded slow and droopy. sometimes dead things look more alive than I do, like the leaves that blow in the wind. your mum had such a firm grip on my wrists and she was shaking my whole body to make me move. maybe her forced movements made me look alive, even if I was still asleep, even if I was no longer animate.
-
this is what I thought when I stared at the steam from the tea kettle:
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Literature
a new year's resolution.
i will not write. i will not
form words
out of the clouds,
won't wait
to hear laughter
in the sunshine. no more
tracing pavement dreams
across the borders, no,
no more
will i look
at lamps,
write you
in poems. i won't fall
into the ocean
or confuse a smile
for your love. no,
this year
i will not
be a poet.
Literature
stop ruining autumn.
listen:
fall makes me think of leaving and of apple cider, though i never liked apple cider.
but i liked the idea of it.
listen:
two years ago i met a boy as fragile as dead leaves who called me his little spring girl. (i'd always liked autumn the best.) he kissed the two soft dimples on the small of my back and told me helikedme helovedme hewantedme.
and oh, by the way, "everything good must come to an end."
listen:
on our one year anniversary we picked out two pumpkins and i drew elephants on them for us to carve. he cut his out so aggressively that it lost its shape.
lopped off tusks and broken trunks became just a large, jagged ho
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I like the shorter version for different reasons. I can't really decide which is better. But I think I prefer this one overall.