five.

i wish to disappear
between the cracks in
cement, the stars in the
sky and the spaces between
seconds. i wish to disappear
from the world; hide and become
nothing.

but i'm too terrified
that no one will bother
to remember me.


four.

everything is
fading. light is less
bright, the colors of the world
less vibrant. life
and hope and happiness
feel like the
stars - close enough
to see; too far to ever
reach.


three.

i am at the door
to your heart. i knock,
my voice pleading for you to
just hear me, just
hear me, please.

i keep knocking until i
finally realize -

no one is home.


two.

i scream,
fingernails digging into
skin, lungs burning.
there is no escape,
there is no

escape. i scream
until life suffocates me,
until i have no voice
left, and all that remains is

silence.


one.

i am counting down
to my own destruction.
everything you do, anything
you say -

well, it's all

too late.

zero.