black holes and maps.

i will pretend
i do not fall asleep
thinking of you

if you pretend
not to know.

x

i wish i knew
how to tell you
exactly how i feel about
you.

it's like
you're a black hole
and you pull me in

and all i can do
is try not to lose myself
completely.

x

dear self:

please do not confuse
falling
for him with
flying.

x

we are not a
rollercoaster, so please
stop saying this relationship
is one.

[haven't you heard that
rollercoasters have ups
as well as
downs?]

x

x marks the spot,
sweetheart;

this is a map,
and if you follow it
you'll find my heart.

[except,
you don't really care
enough to look.]