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mommy used to put me to sleep with horror stories.
'boys don't have hearts,' she'd say, shaking her finger in my face. 'if something doesn't have a heart, it can't fall in love with you. remember that,
remember that before you fall in love with one.'
and i don't know what scares me more -
the memories of her horror stories, or the fact that this boy has a heart.
---
'you'll feel better tomorrow morning,' she tells me. 'i promise.'
lights are swirling in the background, forming shapes. there's a heart made of an icy blue, i notice, and raindrops made of black. 'what am i supposed to feel bad about in the first place?' i ask after a moment.
'you'll see,' she tells me, sadness on her tongue. she turns to leave, dress swirling in the dim lights.
'wait!' i call out, and she turns around. 'who are you?'
'someone you'll know, someday,' she says cryptically.
there's a beating growing in the background now, getting faster as time passes. it reminds me of a time bomb. five minutes left till explosion.
and as it ticks, i realize who she is; who she's talking about. me.
'why can't i know who i am now, though?' i ask. 'am i that hard to find?'
'no,' she says. 'you just have to lose something - or someone - before you can find something else - in this case, yourself.'
there's an explosion the background, and i think of the hearts and raindrops and rainbow colors that will get destroyed.
i wake up crying.
---
and then i learned what i was supposed to feel bad about.
'i fucking love you!' i screamed. he shook his head sadly.
the clocks were chiming as the door slammed.
(it's time to move on, they tell me.
it's time.)
'boys don't have hearts,' she'd say, shaking her finger in my face. 'if something doesn't have a heart, it can't fall in love with you. remember that,
remember that before you fall in love with one.'
and i don't know what scares me more -
the memories of her horror stories, or the fact that this boy has a heart.
---
'you'll feel better tomorrow morning,' she tells me. 'i promise.'
lights are swirling in the background, forming shapes. there's a heart made of an icy blue, i notice, and raindrops made of black. 'what am i supposed to feel bad about in the first place?' i ask after a moment.
'you'll see,' she tells me, sadness on her tongue. she turns to leave, dress swirling in the dim lights.
'wait!' i call out, and she turns around. 'who are you?'
'someone you'll know, someday,' she says cryptically.
there's a beating growing in the background now, getting faster as time passes. it reminds me of a time bomb. five minutes left till explosion.
and as it ticks, i realize who she is; who she's talking about. me.
'why can't i know who i am now, though?' i ask. 'am i that hard to find?'
'no,' she says. 'you just have to lose something - or someone - before you can find something else - in this case, yourself.'
there's an explosion the background, and i think of the hearts and raindrops and rainbow colors that will get destroyed.
i wake up crying.
---
and then i learned what i was supposed to feel bad about.
'i fucking love you!' i screamed. he shook his head sadly.
the clocks were chiming as the door slammed.
(it's time to move on, they tell me.
it's time.)
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Hear my joints dislocate, coming apart at the notion of sunlight. It falls and it settles in pictures of loveliness, golden tree branches and hints of leaves; of autumn, of spring.
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have you ever woken up and not thought anything at all?
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somtimes i find myself thinking that 'it'd be fun to go and stand out in the rain' so i do. but once i'm out there i find myself thinking, 'wouldn't it be invigorating to take off my clothes' so i do. but once i've done that, i find myself thinking 'wouldn't it be beautiful to climb on the rooftop', so i do. and then once i'm standing there, i find myself thinking, 'wouldn't it be magical to fall in love' and so i try. i try and try and try but i can't. and so there i am, standing naked on my rooftop in the rain trying to fall in love.
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tragedies - collab.
you deserve all the cobweb dreams,
fairytale hopes, and explosive love
in the world, but i know that i
will never be the one
to give them to you.
you need notes that end with
'ps - you're brighter than
twenty-seven silver stars'.
i can't bring myself
to write them, though.
it's not like you'd read them,
anyway.
i cut out paper hearts and
dreams and gave them to you, but
you only ripped them up and said
'these aren't good enough.'
when i painted you a picture
of golden skies and sunshine smiles,
you handed it back and told me
'next time, paint realistically.'
so i wrote you a story
filled of starless nights and
hopeless d
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[title taken from sugarland's song, already gone.
which is an amazing song.]
edit: i edited the middle part.
i'm not sure if it's any better, though.
i might change it back?
which is an amazing song.]
edit: i edited the middle part.
i'm not sure if it's any better, though.
i might change it back?
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"'boys don't have hearts,' ;; 'if something doesn't have a heart, it can't fall in love with you. remember that, before you fall in love with one
i don't know what scares me more -
the memories of her horror stories, or the fact that this boy has a heart." & "'i fucking love you!' i screamed. he shook his head sadly.
the clocks were chiming as the door slammed.
(it's time to move on, they tell me.
it's time.)"
i don't know what scares me more -
the memories of her horror stories, or the fact that this boy has a heart." & "'i fucking love you!' i screamed. he shook his head sadly.
the clocks were chiming as the door slammed.
(it's time to move on, they tell me.
it's time.)"